who cares

That moment when you realize you're completely diferent then the people around you. Friends, family, grade mates, neighbors. Everybody. And sometimes you think it's so cool to be diferent but other times you just want to kill yourself for not fitting in, for not bonding with other people and not because you're socially retarded or anything it's just that you don't like stuff people around you do and you aren't gonna like it anytime soon. So suddenly you blame yourself for not being like others and you torture yourself with horrid words and insults. But then you realize that's it's not 100% your fault, you may be diferent but after all everybody is diferent in it's own way, so it's not your fault you're more diferent and no one appreciates it. And after you write a whole bunch of shit about yourself you start thinking that there was actually a person that was like you, that liked almost everything you liked and thinked just like you and that person is gone. Far away. And then you realize you are alone. Remembering what it felt like when you were alone, sitting in the sunlight, all alone.

This is so lame. Fuck my life.