Sometimes i feel like being happy with no reason. That is quiet stupid. After that i realize i'm not really happy, i'm just pretending. Pretend pretend pretend. Nice word. It relates to fiction so i like it. Like mgmt. Time to pretend, the song, it says "fated to pretend". That's actually true because i always pretend that the things i want to happen, do happen. But other people think prtending is stupid. They say pretending is like lying. Like being a fake person. That's not true. I'm not a fake person i just like making reality a prettier thing. I write about a world where wonderful things happen for free, where suicidal people love themselfs, where being homosexual is not a bad thing. Fiction is an escape, it's my escape. When i read fiction, when i write fiction i go away for some moments. Fiction is really cool. But we have to thank reality for being so boring and shitty that someone had a great idea and created fiction.