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It's kinda weird, i don't know where i am at this point. I need help but i can't tell anybody. I'ts gonna be a secret forever. Because what if it's not true, what if my mind lied to me again? No one knows. The other day was completly strange. I want it and i don't want it to end. Whatever. Useless crap. this is gonna sound bizarre but... School come to me. I need it. What the fuck am i gonna do? I want an advice now, but if i tell anybody they will just look at me with a are you on drugs? face. Plus this shitty thing i'm forced to do is taking me down, i can't stand it. Well that is it for now..
PD: if you're gonna read, don't try to understand.